Detail of a painting, "Night and Her Train of Stars" by Edward Robert Hughes (1851 - 1941)

Some souls are so special, heaven can't wait.

How very softly you tiptoed into our world. Silently, only a moment you stayed.
But what an imprint your footsteps have left upon our hearts...

Alexander Luciano "Alex" was stillborn at full term, on March 1st, 1995 @ 4:29 AM He actually died the day before he was due, on February 25th, 1995. He weighed 5 lb 13 oz and was 19.5 in long. At the time we were told that he died of a cord accident, but after his little brother was born with a skin disorder called Epidermolysis Bullosa (EB) it is very likely he had the same thing too. EB could have played a major part in his demise, but we will never know for sure if he had it or not.

There are no words that can accurately explain what it feels like to hold your dead newborn.
It's like a stake through your heart.

Some people only dream of angels. We held one in our arms.

We'll never forget the wonderful treatment we were offered by the nurses and staff
at "Desert Samaritan Hospital" in Mesa AZ.
They treated Alex with respect and love.

Not only they took pictures of him, they bathed him, cut a lock of hair
and dressed him with a cute angel diaper and bonnet.
They did not take him away until we all said our good-byes.

We'll love you forever, We'll like you for always.
As long as we're living, our baby you'll be.

He is buried in the baby section at the "Queen of Heaven Cemetery" in Mesa, AZ.
He has a lot of baby angel friends there.

My child is dead. Most of the time my mind remembers, it's only my heart that tends to forget.

Alex never cried, yet he taught us so much about life, humility and love.

We will forever feel your presence, and love you always...

We shared your moment, and love you dearly. Now you will remain our forever baby.

We lovingly remember Alex's little sister Emily Hope.

Miscarried October 12, 1995

Two little cherubs, heavenly angels from above.
They flew away from our embrace, but left us with their love.

Alex on the Web

His (short) story link:

On SIDS Network

Dear Friend:

Go ahead and mention my child, the one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further, the depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry, I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing the tears that I'm trying to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent, pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you'd mention my child, knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I'm doing, I say "pretty good" or "fine",
but healing is something on-going, I feel like it will take a lifetime.

Written by Elizabeth Dent

Now you belong to heaven, and the stars spell out your name...

It is not the will of the father, which is in heaven
that one of these little ones should perish...

Matthew 18:14

I thank my God everytime I remember you.

Philippians 1:3

I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chattered all the way,
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow
And ne'er a word said she;
But oh, the things I learned from her
When Sorrow walked with me!

-- Robert Browning

Just Say "I'm Sorry"

You don't know how I feel; please don't tell me that you do
There's just one way to know--have you lost a child too?
"You'll have another child"--must I hear this every day?
Can I get another mother, too, if mine should pass away?

Don't say it was "God's will"--that's not the God I know.
Would God, on purpose, break my heart, then watch as my tears flow?
"You have an angel in heaven--a precious child above."
But tell me, to whom here on earth shall I give this love?

"Aren't you better yet?" Is that what I heard you say?
No! A part of my heart aches and I'll always feel some pain.
You think that silence is kind, but it hurts me even more.
I want to talk about my child who has gone through death's door.

Don't say these things to me, although you do mean well.
They do not take my pain away; I must go through this hell.
I will get better, slow but sure--and it helps to have you near.
But a simple "I'm sorry you lost your child" is all I need to hear.

--Gail Fasolo--

Click Here to read the article that appeared on the Wall Street Journal about Alex's Web Page

~Alex's Corner~
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If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again.

 

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The beautiful painting is the work of Richard Zolan

Edward Robert Hughes - Night With Her Train of Stars and Her Great Gift of Sleep, 1912
Night With Her Train of Stars and Her Great Gift of Sleep, 1912
Edward Robert Hughes
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